I can never follow a pattern either and usually make up my own or follow Bella Coco on her you tube tutorials.Thanks
I taught myself to crochet about 40 years ago and haven't done any since. Just some poppies.
So I'm never sure if I'm doing it right. I started out with a pattern but it wasn't working out. Mrs Badknee lent me a pattern book and showed me how to read the pattern but that was just for a granny square. I made the rest up. Believe me it is quite rough and needed some persuading to fit it together. But if I made another one I've learnt from my mistakes